Tuesday, May 31, 2005 11:20 AM
mi and my sis...... this pic was taken when we were on the train to *pS*.......... today mi n my sis walk from pS all the way to far east..... it was so tiring but still veri happy coz i had buy the things that i wan..... hahahaha...... den reach home at abt 8........ den 9+ meet my ex..... chat until now jus reach home.......... yawNz... its sleeping time......
Thursday, May 19, 2005 9:30 PM
yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally finish the exam oreali....... hahaha...... holiday le...... can go out enjoy le.... last 1 week... mi,rq, juliz and neli were study like mad...... hahaha..... finally all over le.... hope tat all our hardwork paid off...... this morning meet *rq* and *neli* go jurong east wash photo......... 12+ reach school le.... den revise for fmk exam.... before the exam...... i nervous until wan to vomit...... omG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the first time..... mi nervous until want to vomit....... hahahaha.......... after exam.......... mi, juliz, rq and yvonne go compass point had our dinner........ although the journey is quite long... coz we take bus but we talked and laugh through our whole journey........ hahaha...
den i take 159 alighted at hougang point... actually thought of walking home but it was raining so i take 112 home.... when i alighted at the bus stop..... i was wondering why there is police....... guess wat i see??? dead body again........ y i so suay..... arGH!!!!!!!!!!!! this week is the second time i see dead body le.......... monday after cmb lesson... mi and rq go clementi there..... mc there aso got dead body....... den after tat at nite when i sleeping i got nightmare........... hope tonite no nightmare............
Wednesday, May 11, 2005 10:14 PM
today reali damn pissed off....... this morning my ex bring the photo that we had taken.... infront of him i cut the photo into 2..... yesterday nite he told me he like my sis den wan mi to help him..... den today i sms my sis to tell her abt this.... wah.... still kana scold by him..... why cant i tell my sis about.... she got the right to noe all this..... den scold mi say i bitch..... flirt... i flirt so wat... i like to flirt around so? say i flirt wif njm.... pls lor....... even if i flirt aso none of his business........ he aso chee hong wat........
haiz..... so tired.... not feeling well aso..... think goin to sick le.........
1:00 AM
hardworking hor... hahaha.... mi in library studying fmk...... lolx
hmmmm..... today mi, rq, juliz and nelita went toa payoh libray to study........ its was so fun.... lolx... at least i can study.. at home totally cannot study..... sleep the whole afternoon like yesterday........ something that rq say make me laugh until cannot tahan..... still remember my w******....... den after tat end up at there taking photos....... hee..... jus now i alight at the wrong bus stop... omg.... need to walk so long.... soB.....
jus now my ex just tell me he had oreali give up on mi..... i was reali happy tat he had give up on mi.... but i was a bit shock tat he like my sister... lolx... should i help him????
Monday, May 09, 2005 9:17 PM
today is a boring day.... wake up at 8.15.... nothing to do.. after lunch... i take out my fmk book and study..... after study awhile suddenly feel veri sleepy... as i was taking nap.... my phone kept ringing...... haiz.... wan to sleep aso cannot sleep properly... haiz.... after *rq* call mi two times den after tat jinqiang keep on sms mi.... haiz.......
TV time... hehe....
Sunday, May 08, 2005 11:16 PM
today reali enjoy myself alot... today i mit my fren *lihong* (Secondary school fren) go orchard... we had never mit each other for 1 year le... thought we mit le.. got nothing to talk... i mit her at hougang mrt station.. den we go ps den walk all the way to far east... on the way.. we kept talking non-stop and keep laughin non-stop... talk and laugh until i dunno how to cross the road... lolx.... i saw ppl cross the road i aso cross.... end up my fren pull mi back coz the car is coming.... reali can forget all those unhappy things.... den 7+.. when take bus no. 132 home... on the way home... we regreted taking this bus..... coz the bus driver was driving reali fast lor... omg... but she goin for her attachment le... no time to mit le... *yawnz*... so tired.. i been walkin for the whole day.......................
Saturday, May 07, 2005 6:20 PM
so boring... sianz.... just wake up not long... actually yesterday afternoon.. i noe my sis was chatting with who... using my phone... i jus act blur..... but yesterday nite.. my sis jus tell mi something tat i dunno... when i noe tat my heart was like someone using a knife n stabbed on it... so painful... i think this wound will take a long time to heal.... it will leave a scar even it had areali healed.... i feel like an idiot... being cheated for so long... and i still dunno...
dun dare to tell mi.... den tell my sis.... den call her dun tell mi.... r u reali tat stupid.... i dun think so... u think she wont tell mi..... hahaha.... u jus wan here to tell mi... y u dun dare tell mi..... dare to do all those things dun dare tell mi ar......
Wednesday, May 04, 2005 10:35 PM
today mi reali heartbreak.... totally disappointed in him..... actually mi oreali noe the ans tat he will gif mi but i still choose to believe in him... but this is wat i get back.... onli sadness and heartbroken..... i wont believe in guys anymore.... wat he tell mi.... i find it all nonsense lor.... i like u.. but dun wanna b together.... and say tat he dun wanna hurt mi.... wat stupid nonsense is this..... he had oreali hurt mi so deep den now den say dun wan to hurt mi.... NonsEnseSSSS....y the ans he gif mi is "i dunno"..... keep on say i dunno.... wat else can he say... y he himself dunno his own feelings.... since he cannot gif mi an ans..... den i had the ans for him lor... wat i say i mean it lor... so from tml onwards... we no longer frens..... he is onli a stranger to mi... and i will hate him forever... the reasOn tat i hate him is sinCe he noe tat we cannot b together den y he wan to b so close to mi and keep on giving mi hopes and den destroy it again.... its very painfuLLLL when ur hope is being destroy.... how i wish i dunno him at all....
yesterday my fren still scold mi for being stupid.... he treat mi like rubbish... yet i still finding excuse to cover for him... i think wat he say is all true lor... i m just finding excuses to make myself feel better..
from jus now i haf been listening to sylvester's song... the lyrics i find it quite meaningful.... den end up sit down there keep on crying.... if i had listened to wat *RQ* had tell mi... i think mi now wont b like le... anyway i think jus take it as a lesson..... wont believe in guys aso easily.....
Monday, May 02, 2005 8:05 PM
*yawnz* so tired... just reach home not long.... jus come back from nick hse.... mi yesterday go siloso beach wif my sis and her fren *jasmine*..... we go there n sun tann.... end up our back all sun burn.... so painful... sob* sob*..... luckily we go off early if not we all will die... lolx... so funny.... haha... when mi n my sis go play water..... left her fren sitting there.... sit there sit until the map fly away still dunno.... tat after tat reach home... bath le straightaway go nick hse.... wah... very tired lei... feel like slping...
haiz... i find tat i m reali useless... sad lei.... at nite *rq* call mi.... den we chat... chat until i cried.... n happen to let fraddy saw mi crying.... and he noe the reason y i cried.... and he tell mi tat everything is oreali over..... no point crying... i can always find a new 1... i noe tat i can always find a new 1... mayb someone tat is better than him.... but the feelings is still there and is veri difficult to get rid of it.... everything is easy to say but difficult to do... actually yesterday is not the first time tat i cried bcoz of this... i had been crying for nites... mayb i reali need to find a new 1 den can totally forget abt him....
yesterday onli drink 2 glass of martell plus green tea den i started to blur le..... tat is not the usual me...... mayb bcoz of mood yesterday so will get drunk easily....
i must do it....
